Immovable Object

[talktooloose]

To be a bit less hysterical...

I have been forced into a job position that dovetails nicely with all my areas of neurosis, incompetence and deficiency.

I thrive on jobs where someone gives me something complex to do, gives me the resources and time to do it and then leaves me the fuck alone. I am very easily distracted (probably ADD, whatever) and need to be in a bit of a bubble to get through things. I am also smart and creative which means I do good work under these conditions.

When I was forced to become the temporary graphics supervisor in January (until mid-June, it would seem), I didn't really have choice but accept. This job consists of being bombarded 10 times an hour by 10 different people, all of whom are desperate for their job to be done first and NOW.

It is the kind of job that no matter how fast you run and how efficient you are, you end up with everyone marginally unhappy that you couldn't do what they want faster. I am a person who thrives on praise (I wish I wasn't so dependent on it). Instead, I go home a wreck, thinking everyone hates me or considers me incompetent. Then I fret all night.

I hate this job and it is making me crazy, and I am starting to fail, I fear. I stared at last week's time sheet (still not done) and couldn't put together what I had done even though I remember I was crazy all the time.

I am writing LJ posts as people wait for my work now. This is a bad day, but I assume I'll get through.

Comments

Me! Me! You've described what they do to me!

[oceanabliss.livejournal.com]

Thanks for putting into words what's been driving me insane here at work. I do really good work under the 'thrive' conditions you describe and I do poor work (for which they yell at me) when I'm pulled in too many directions at once. On top of that, they give me micro-managing supervisors (the last one mm'd down to the cellular level), something I'd never had at any job before this august institution of higher learning. I've come to the conclusion that this place breeds them. And, to top it off, they just forced me to start answering phones on the help desk *while* I'm still trying to do my fulltime programming job.

Re: Me! Me! You've described what they do to me!

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

You can't be interrupted while programming. That just doesn't work. What morons.

[fantasyenabler.livejournal.com]

Have a drive-by "hug." Hopefully, June will be here before you know it and you'll be able to hand this job off to someone else with as little fuss as possible.

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

Thank you. She's supposed to come back from mat leave in June, but she doesn't actually have to declare her intentions to do so until two weeks before her mat leave ends.

Suspense! By the scrotum!

[lux-apollo.livejournal.com]

Dude. I hope the situation improves, but I don't have much faith in corporate structure.

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

In the end, I can survive because it's three days a week. If T decides not to return after her mat leave, they will replace her, though that will probably take time.

She is a super awesome supervisor and I love working for her, so I hope to hell she warehouses her baby and gets back to the corporate structure full time! Yowza!

[rfmcdpei.livejournal.com]

::hugs::