Instinct and Reason

[talktooloose]

I have a strong instinctual life. I seem to set myself to do things, experience things, watch and listen to things, because that is what an inner voice says (often without words) that I need at the time. I follow courses of enthusiasm that are sometimes counter-intuitive and baffling to my conscious mind.

I spend a lot of time fighting these instinctual impulses and trying to nudge or strong-arm myself onto straighter courses. I employ reason, blackmail, carrots, sticks, and above all, guilt, in an effort to bring myself to heel.

I find it incredibly hard to accept that my instincts might know better than my reason what I need.

Comments

[lady-drace.livejournal.com]

My instincts are... not very active. They hardly ever show themselves and it's rare that their course is at all helpful.

But then again, my self control is also a somewhat fluctuating thing. So I dunno. Tricky subject.