Instinct and Reason
Dec. 2nd, 2010 11:39 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I have a strong instinctual life. I seem to set myself to do things, experience things, watch and listen to things, because that is what an inner voice says (often without words) that I need at the time. I follow courses of enthusiasm that are sometimes counter-intuitive and baffling to my conscious mind.
I spend a lot of time fighting these instinctual impulses and trying to nudge or strong-arm myself onto straighter courses. I employ reason, blackmail, carrots, sticks, and above all, guilt, in an effort to bring myself to heel.
I find it incredibly hard to accept that my instincts might know better than my reason what I need.
I spend a lot of time fighting these instinctual impulses and trying to nudge or strong-arm myself onto straighter courses. I employ reason, blackmail, carrots, sticks, and above all, guilt, in an effort to bring myself to heel.
I find it incredibly hard to accept that my instincts might know better than my reason what I need.
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Date: 2010-12-03 03:03 am (UTC)Self control can sometimes be.. elusive.
Sometimes, the best thing a body can do is just ride out the storm...
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Date: 2010-12-03 07:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-12-03 02:38 pm (UTC)My feeling about instincts (or my instinct about those feelings) is that they are half-formed but powerful creations that appear at intersection of many life threads. They need to be brought slowly into the conscious mind where reason can give them dimension. I say slowly, because reason can also crush them if we don't take the time to appreciate the unique properties of the inchoate blobs before we start publishing their stats.
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Date: 2010-12-04 12:46 am (UTC)But then again, my self control is also a somewhat fluctuating thing. So I dunno. Tricky subject.