Chapters in Indigo

[talktooloose]

Sorry, dumb subject pun.

Toutou just left our house for good. For those of you new to the story, Snake taught in China for four months in 2001. There, he met and fell in love with a young man from Beijing. After a bit of negotiation, we agreed that we would help Toutou move to Canada and that we would experiment with a threeway relationship.

It was actually not a complete triangle as Toutou and I weren't partners; rather, we had Snake in common. Snake alternated nights with us and it was all very instructive and kind of refreshing.

Before Snake left for China, our relationship was in a rocky patch. After Toutou came to live with us, we grew closer again. However, their relationship went downhill for three (four?) years until it was the walking dead.

Toutou continued to live with us until this morning. He and I got on quite well, but Snake had a lot of seething resentment that made life in our house less than pleasant sometimes. It astonishes me that Snake feels no emotion on this housemate and former lover leaving. It's just a relief. I, personally, got a bit choked up.

So many chapters drawing to a close. The piano is moving today and we're spending the weekend emptying the main floor. Monday we begin to bash at the plaster. It's going to be a whole new way of living in more ways than one.

Quite unsettling.

Comments

[mofic.livejournal.com]

Wow! I had no idea. I hope the new chapters are good...

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

Hmm, guess we weren't friends or even "friends" back when I blogged about it. Minisinoo was very interested and wanted info she could use in a story!

[nyahnyahnyah.livejournal.com]

Is it something about the spring, or is this year just crazy like that? I've been feeling some changes too, of things being turned on their head a wee bit at a time.

[lux-apollo.livejournal.com]

It is odd how the threads of change often work themselves together into a single cloth...

[strumquill.livejournal.com]

TouTou is an incredible man. I'm sorry he left your household. I hope you all remain friends.

Back in '04 TT described the alternating to me quite a bit differently if I may say. But the past is the past as they say, no regrets ;)

Cody

[strumquill.livejournal.com]

PS. I know a sliver of how Snake must feel and must have felt. When I first met TT I totally fell in love with him. By the second day we were engaged in long conversations about life and relationships as if we had known each other for a decade - his musical voice holding me with every phrase.

By the third day we spent of that weekend touring around Vancouver he was sniping at me impatiently about a decent spot to eat and I was scolding him with "don't pull that moody crap on me boy, I'll just ignore it" knowing full well that by then this lad would have been too much for me to handle in a relationship - in both good, all-absorbing and trantraumatic ways. TT could have torn my heart out and I would have thrived on every drop. I don't buy that Snake feels "no emotion" rather than he probably spent his quota over the years.

When I saw TT a few years later with his new beau on his turf in DT Gay ghetto, I didn't feel the same way - maybe it was the stash and beard - maybe it was the newer "ghetto" feel about him. Maybe it was just me feeling glad I didn't live down there anymore. But it is always great to hear from him when we do talk. It's been awhile.