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Opportunities
Jun. 21st, 2005 06:03 pmLife offers opportunities to remap our interior world.
This was a tough day; I had to get an important and time-sensitive project completed on software that I didn't know that we are using based on my research. In other words, I put a pressure on myself and then a new deadline doubled that pressure and I still came through. Yay me.
But at the same time, three more arbitrary and useless deadlines were dropped on me today and I had to push back (with the help of my supervisor) and say, "it's not going to happen." And I now have the opportunity to consider this a victory instead of my default reaction which is to feel like a failure because I didn't get everything done that was asked of me -- even if it was unreasonable.
Also, I am being pushed to send off designs for our new website to the programmers even though I've been feeling they aren't ready yet. A meeting with the marketing director today helped me confirm those feelings. But again, I am not getting done what has been asked.
I have to learn that my judgement is sound and, in fact, respected here at work. In the past I have often made myself crazy by attempting the impossible. I don't want to do that anymore.
This was a tough day; I had to get an important and time-sensitive project completed on software that I didn't know that we are using based on my research. In other words, I put a pressure on myself and then a new deadline doubled that pressure and I still came through. Yay me.
But at the same time, three more arbitrary and useless deadlines were dropped on me today and I had to push back (with the help of my supervisor) and say, "it's not going to happen." And I now have the opportunity to consider this a victory instead of my default reaction which is to feel like a failure because I didn't get everything done that was asked of me -- even if it was unreasonable.
Also, I am being pushed to send off designs for our new website to the programmers even though I've been feeling they aren't ready yet. A meeting with the marketing director today helped me confirm those feelings. But again, I am not getting done what has been asked.
I have to learn that my judgement is sound and, in fact, respected here at work. In the past I have often made myself crazy by attempting the impossible. I don't want to do that anymore.
