Mendacious

[talktooloose]

I'm on the mend. I've put the crutches aside and I'm walking with a cane. This is a distinct improvement though I have to resist my tendency to do too much too soon.

I'm reading The Knee Crisis Handbook and coming away feeling guilty that I didn't do more for my health preventatively. This is probably not a valid feeling (most guilt isn't) as I have taken steps to improve my knee health in the past years. The guilt arises from my feeling that if I only control all aspects of my life consistently and perfectly, I will never age and will have maximum success in all my endeavours.

This hyper-control theory doesn't hold up to much scrutiny so don't bother.

I see a orthopaedic specialist some time in the next 10 days and I am trying to arm myself with as much knowledge as possible before then. Still, this has been a humbling experience and it's making my moods a bit swingy.

Living across the road from my friends is turning out to be as wonderful as hoped. appelle and I have been sitting out on the front porch of an evening and reordering the universe in our own image. You may wish to join us.

But my swingy mood was definitely in evidence last night when Appelle and I were chatting and snowmit and spizzy came home. I got really bizarrely manic during the ensuing conversation, embarrassing the 'Mit with my volume and repeatedly cutting off Spizzy when he would speak. I apologize.

I'm having not-coffee later with rfmcdpei and giving him a copy of the Bowie compilation I put together for nyahnyahnyah. Hey, 'Sha! Where are you? I miss you.

Ramble, ramble.

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[(Anonymous)]

embarrassing the 'Mit with my volume

No you didn't.

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

Log in, bitch.

I'm glad I didn't bug you. In that kind of weird manic place I also get really paranoid and rerun scenes in my head a lot with bizarre misinterpretations.

[spizzy.livejournal.com]

No worries, I don't even remember that happening.

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

Good, because I noticed myself doing it even as I did it but I felt like a runaway train.

Most?

[briseur.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure I think guilt is ever valid. Initeresting that you felt a need to apologise for stuff your friends didn't even notice. This happens to me all the time.

Re: Most?

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

Now you're gnawing beaver-like at the eitz chaim of my whole tradition!

GUILT!!

In Freudian terms, guilt is a necessary part of the creation of the superego which is the part which tells us how to behave in society. Do you think we can grow up without a sense of guilt? If your child humiliates a playfellow, do you not say to him/her that their fellow is now feeling sad as a result? Is guilt at humiliating someone not the result of this process and a preventative of that kind of action? Is guilt ot a precursor of empathy?

Re: Most?

[briseur.livejournal.com]

> Do you think we can grow up without a sense of guilt? If your child humiliates a playfellow, do you not say to him/her that their fellow is now feeling sad as a result?

I might explain to the child that if it's OK for him to treat others that way, (s)he has to expect others to treat her/him that way. Less moral, more economic. And when they're too young to understand that level of subtlty, they're young enough to respond to, "Don't do that around me; I don't like it."

[mofic.livejournal.com]

Can you give me the Cliff Notes version of preventative knee health? I find that I get pain in my joints (particularly knees) if I'm less active. Swimming 2-3 times a week seems to avert it, but I have no idea what I'm doing, really.

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

When I was growing up, it was Coles Notes. But then Coles was bought by a bigger fish which was bought by a bigger fish which was bought by Heather Reisman who destoryed the Canadian publishing industry and countless independent bookstores.

Short version: knees are complicated and exactly positioned to take a lot of shit.

Alignment of a whole bunch of muscles and bones is important. If your foot tends to turn in or out too much when you walk, your knee is landing wrong every time.

If the muscles in your legs are not evenly strengthened, it messes you up. For instance, I have some humungous upper thigh muscles from biking, but my inner thigh muscles are much weaker causing torquing of my knee.

There is a lot about strength, flexibility, bone density, disease-based causes. Hard to summarize.

Swimming is great because water offers good resistance but also is very supportive of the body and makes load on it much more even and impact much less extreme.

My local library had FIVE knee books. Check out yours.

Best typo of the year

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

Holy Shit!

I wrote "Heather Reisman DESTORYED the Canadian publishing industry" instead of DESTROYED.

Re: Best typo of the year

[mofic.livejournal.com]

LOL! Almost Freudian, that one.

Thanks for the knee info, and the prod to look at the library.

I don't know that I've ever actually seen a Cliff Notes or Cole Notes. I think of "Cliff Notes" as just an expression for "tell me the highlights."