2005 Ho! (No, you're a ho!)

[talktooloose]

Last January, I wrote "My path is clear; I just need the courage to walk it." This remains true a year later.

While I am disappointed with the snail-like speed with which my dreams are unrolling, they still seem to be and that is a good thing.

I am struck, going through 2004's entries, with how much of the time I seemed either depressed or in a panic. I don't know what is going to change this. I just need to keep rolling out the road of dreams and seeing where it leads me. I know that inaction panics me more than fear of failure.

I am also taking a long look at the passions which move me and I want to learn to honour those.

Thank you to all my friends who help me when I'm hurting and who let me help them when they are. I also like laughing with you.

Thank you to my puppy, to my cat, to my voice, to my hands, to the rest of my body, to my movies, to my comic books, to my slash, to my musicians, to food, to LJ, to sex, to the seasons, to my family, to my friends, to my bottomless muse (which is sort of like buttless chaps).

Comments

[rfmcdpei.livejournal.com]

I am struck, going through 2004's entries, with how much of the time I seemed either depressed or in a panic.

This, like the rest of your third paragraph, can almost be classified as a universal theme for people generally. All I can say is de l'audace, encore de l'audace, toujours de l'audace!

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

Mais oui! Merci.

Good luck with your training this week.

[redrunner.livejournal.com]

I'm wondering, were the entries so panicked and unhappy just partly because LJ is such a good place to put such thoughts? I recall (during those few times I could drag myself away from school to see you) that you seemed to be handling things well, thinking & working lots, & staying the course (like working on your own comic book! holy cool!!).

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

One of the things I really value about your friendship is your ability to see through emotions in different contexts. I am reminded of your helpful advice a few weeks ago about my environmental hopelessness.

You may be right about LJ being the place to make misery extant. On the other hand, I am like you in being able to be positive when I'm with people. It's not that it's all a mask... It's just that when I'm with people, I feel emboldened to live life graciously and passionately. LJ entries mirror my solitary world.