So, all day I've been writing and rewriting an entry in my head summarizing last night's kinky sex extravaganza and yet I can't bring myself to actually write it.
I used to have a completely anonymous journal (in which I left stupid clues that led to its discovery) and in it, I could show just about any side of me I wanted.
Talktooloose is also anonymous except to about six or seven people which has been good from the point of view of meeting and socializing with fascinating geeks and web heads but I find myself inhibited here in the journal which annoys me.
I don't quite have the chutzpah to reveal my desires and just say "judgement be damned". I have always been plagued by an unhealthy desire to be liked by as many as possible. This is at odds with my belief in openness and my sure knowledge that my openness leads others to reveal and celebrate the more unconventional pieces of their natures, too.
And of course, I'm a pejorative bigot, too. I assume that some of my readers (and I'm probably talking about the str8 boys here) CAN'T HANDLE IT!
So, there you are, dear readers: untitillated and probably insulted. Boy, am I expecting to catch shit from
briseur about this one!
I used to have a completely anonymous journal (in which I left stupid clues that led to its discovery) and in it, I could show just about any side of me I wanted.
Talktooloose is also anonymous except to about six or seven people which has been good from the point of view of meeting and socializing with fascinating geeks and web heads but I find myself inhibited here in the journal which annoys me.
I don't quite have the chutzpah to reveal my desires and just say "judgement be damned". I have always been plagued by an unhealthy desire to be liked by as many as possible. This is at odds with my belief in openness and my sure knowledge that my openness leads others to reveal and celebrate the more unconventional pieces of their natures, too.
And of course, I'm a pejorative bigot, too. I assume that some of my readers (and I'm probably talking about the str8 boys here) CAN'T HANDLE IT!
So, there you are, dear readers: untitillated and probably insulted. Boy, am I expecting to catch shit from