Unhealthy Obsessions: Collect the All!
Sep. 23rd, 2008 10:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
talktoolooseI'm obsessed by the worry that I may have sleep apnea. I don't have any real evidence that I do. I don't snore, Snake has not reported me snorting in my sleep (I've asked him). Maybe it's because my big brother just got his CPAP machine and my dad has one. (Not to mention at least two guys on this flist).
As we know, I wake up and worry at 4 in the morning. Today I was worrying at 4 in the morning that the cause of my 4 in the morning waking was sleep apnea. I drifted in and out of sleep until the alarm went off and everytime I woke up, I thought, "Did I wake up because of sleep apnea?!!!"
I think I have apneac episodes (made that word the fuck up!!) if I nap in the afternoon. I do catch myself snorting awake then. But if I'm aware of it in the afternoon, why not at night?
One thing is certain; I do not want to depend on a machine for healthy sleep. I hate artificial interventions like machines and pills. I'd rather do 100 more hours of yoga or whatever than be dependent on a machinepill. This is not necessarily rational; on the other hand, being encumbered with a machine makes travel and casual visiting much more onerous. Also, what will happen when access to electricity is more limited in the future? (UNHEALTHY OBSESSIONS!!)
But the aversion is also learned: my mother should not have been moving around the uneven ground in the cemetery on Sunday without a cane. She's fallen twice in the last two months.
Where was I? Oh yeah... unhealthy obsessions!
As we know, I wake up and worry at 4 in the morning. Today I was worrying at 4 in the morning that the cause of my 4 in the morning waking was sleep apnea. I drifted in and out of sleep until the alarm went off and everytime I woke up, I thought, "Did I wake up because of sleep apnea?!!!"
I think I have apneac episodes (made that word the fuck up!!) if I nap in the afternoon. I do catch myself snorting awake then. But if I'm aware of it in the afternoon, why not at night?
One thing is certain; I do not want to depend on a machine for healthy sleep. I hate artificial interventions like machines and pills. I'd rather do 100 more hours of yoga or whatever than be dependent on a machinepill. This is not necessarily rational; on the other hand, being encumbered with a machine makes travel and casual visiting much more onerous. Also, what will happen when access to electricity is more limited in the future? (UNHEALTHY OBSESSIONS!!)
But the aversion is also learned: my mother should not have been moving around the uneven ground in the cemetery on Sunday without a cane. She's fallen twice in the last two months.
Where was I? Oh yeah... unhealthy obsessions!
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Date: 2008-09-23 02:11 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2008-09-23 02:22 pm (UTC)My mother's been blaming doctors for her morbid obesity for decades now ... oh those doctors, they never listen to me when I tell them the pills are making me gain weight.
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Date: 2008-09-23 04:11 pm (UTC)I'll think about talking to my doctor about it. What if you can't sleep because you're at the sleep clinic?
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Date: 2008-09-23 05:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-23 05:39 pm (UTC)I also have trouble sleeping with any clothing on...
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Date: 2008-09-23 03:37 pm (UTC)Sorry to hear about your mom. Is she okay? Did she break anything in her fall? After a certain age, that is a very serious worry.
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Date: 2008-09-23 04:12 pm (UTC)Needless to say, I worry about her.
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Date: 2008-09-23 04:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-23 05:40 pm (UTC)Oh dear, you really don't understand how this works.
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Date: 2008-09-23 05:46 pm (UTC)Actually, we were all so impressed by the room discount that we've been encouraging to take dives ever since. Gas station bathroom fall? Free case of Coke! Shoppers Drug Mart fall? Xanax for everyone!
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Date: 2008-09-23 06:07 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2008-09-23 09:41 pm (UTC)Hey, I decree that Briseur and Bitterlawngnome must meet next time Briseur is in Toronto!
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Date: 2008-09-23 07:26 pm (UTC)What i am saying here is that if your mom will feel neglected to not be worried about, worry away! :P
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Date: 2008-09-23 07:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-24 10:55 pm (UTC)http://www.news.com.au/story/0,23599,24396223-23109,00.html
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Date: 2008-09-25 01:04 pm (UTC)