Psyck

[talktooloose]

I just called in sick... humph.

This virus is really kicking my ass since last Thursday. There was a bit of stomach stuff, but otherwise, it's the most focused flu I've ever seen: sore throat and extreme fatigue. That's it. Day after day.

My throat seems a bit better today, but it's 9 a.m. and I'm already set to crawl back to bed. I feel so useless and unproductive.

On the positive health side, my heart has been incredibly steady for months now, my tennis elbows have been relatively quiet, I've been successfully managing my tendency to pinch a nerve in my neck, my knees have been pretty awesome and yoga is completely changing my alignment which means less neck and back pain.

Now I just have to manage the panic that floods me about being unproductive and the fear that my employers will figure out in my absence that they don't need me and send me packing. This fear is unfounded but feels real nonetheless. Sick psyche.

Comments

[quirkstreet.livejournal.com]

Dude, how ironic is this conversation between you and I from about a year ago?:

http://trapezebear.livejournal.com/287790.html?thread=3746862#t3746862

I started getting really tired and ill about this time last year. Looking back through my blog, I don't see a lot of references to sore throat, but I was taking NyQuil frequently for a while there, and I don't usually do that unless my head is too stuffy or my throat too sore to get to sleep. But mainly I was just extremely extremely fatigued.

So rest up and take good care of yourself. I'm pretty sure I made what I had worse by giving in to all that "they'll hate me if I don't come in to work" bullshit.

Hugs.

[talktooloose.livejournal.com]

Heh, yeah, "ironic". Don't scare me.

Actually, I remember a flu from around 1993 where I was down for about 10 days. I remember finally getting fed up with being at home and heading for the bus stop during a snowstorm. By the time I had rounded the corner, I was so out of breath that I crawled home.

It's kind of fascinating to imagine the battleground in my body between the immune system and the invaders. Go immune!

Hugs appreciated.

[mentalmakeup.livejournal.com]

Bad panic! Shut up and stop bothering my friend with your irrational meanderings.

[rfmcdpei.livejournal.com]

::hugs::

Get well. My thanks for your words Thursday--it was great to talk to you.

BTW, have you checked out james_nicoll? Do so--I think you might like him.

[nyahnyahnyah.livejournal.com]

Funny, I had half a thought to call you today, and then I thought "nah, he's probably at work." Hope you feel better soon, doll.

*puts on SARS mask, *then* gives you hugs*

[strumquill.livejournal.com]

I guess every time a Torontonian gets the flu these days a SARS ref has to come up :)

When I had my latest kidney stone last October my thought was "OMG, I can't trust anyone else to do my job; my class is going to fall apart, I can't afford to get sick." An sure enough one of my best ESL students got bullied by a girl in my class and the fallout was for weeks since.

I guess what I am saying is, sometimes I think it might be nice to think I was easily replaceable.

But now what you jsut said reminds me that the opposite side of this coin is uglier.

And both sides of our over-acheiving work ethic worries are msotly BS (my student was later slapped again by a second student when I was right in the room !)

I do flu shots - helps immensely...though in '04 I had a lingering upper respiratory virus which kicked up my Meniere's that lasted for 5 months of being well enough to work but having to crash at 8pm every noght that summer. And off balance most of that time. So who's to say.

Be well and get better,

Hugs,
Cody