Recovering
Feb. 9th, 2006 08:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
talktoolooseIt's been a strange week. I had virtually no pain for the first five days after the surgery but since my physiotherapy on Tuesday, I've felt much worse. Yay. Yesterday I was exhausted most of the day (even though I got a fair bit done between naps) and felt quite sick by evening.
This morning, the pain is less and the swelling around my knee and in my foot is down noticibly. I'm going back to the physiotherapist to see if he can break me some more.
While elevating my foot and icing me knee, I got through the wonderful PBS series on the Broadway Musical including the hours and hours of bonus interviews. Something Mary Rodgers Guettel said about her father, Richard Rodgers really struck home. She called him a very fearful and neurotic man who was only happy when he was making music. It made me think how much calmer, stronger and more sure of myself I am when I'm working as an artist. To me it seems that I am only able to really bring all the parts of myself together in those time. When I have dug deep and drawn out a picture, a song or a story, all my doubts and fears are dispelled for a time. I feel powerful and capable of amazing feats.
I'm thinking of merging my anonymous and non-anonymous journals. Perhaps Talktooloose will only become the name I publish fanfic under. The reasons for the anonymity are evaporating and half of my flist knows my real name anyway. Then I would just have open posts for most affairs and filtered ones for the more private. I'll think about it some more.
This morning, the pain is less and the swelling around my knee and in my foot is down noticibly. I'm going back to the physiotherapist to see if he can break me some more.
While elevating my foot and icing me knee, I got through the wonderful PBS series on the Broadway Musical including the hours and hours of bonus interviews. Something Mary Rodgers Guettel said about her father, Richard Rodgers really struck home. She called him a very fearful and neurotic man who was only happy when he was making music. It made me think how much calmer, stronger and more sure of myself I am when I'm working as an artist. To me it seems that I am only able to really bring all the parts of myself together in those time. When I have dug deep and drawn out a picture, a song or a story, all my doubts and fears are dispelled for a time. I feel powerful and capable of amazing feats.
I'm thinking of merging my anonymous and non-anonymous journals. Perhaps Talktooloose will only become the name I publish fanfic under. The reasons for the anonymity are evaporating and half of my flist knows my real name anyway. Then I would just have open posts for most affairs and filtered ones for the more private. I'll think about it some more.
