Educated Guess

In one week, Snake and I are going down to Florida to my parents' place for a week of R&R. Since we have spent all of our money for 2004 already (new roof, dog, insulation, legal costs on renegotiating mortgage, lump sum mortgage payment, new couch, paint) we will do nothing but read, walk on the beach and let my mother feed us. Luckily, this is precisely the vacation we both need.

I mean, life is good, but shit is it hectic. I seem to be in a place where I can accept my responsibilities and not resent them. Okay, I have to clean the house, okay I have to bargain with roofers, okay I have to organize my taxes, okay I have to hunker down at my day-job, okay I have to actually draw to deadlines if I want my dreams to come true. But it actually like I'm living my life these days and the responsibilities are what come with it. I'm not waiting for my life to begin anymore. I'm not buying lottery tickets which will magically transform it all with no investment; I am my lottery ticket and the odds ain't bad.

( I wish Snake was as peaceful (long rant on stupidity). )