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Good Employee / Bad Employee
Jun. 13th, 2005 05:22 pmOh, there is an awesome, gorgeous apocolypticly typical Toront summer thunderstorm going on outside the big picture windows of our graphics office here. It's preventing me from going home for a few minutes (our storms are intense but brief), so I'll write a bit.
There are certain ways I excel at my job. In a crisis with a huge, mangy project on my desk and a tight deadline, I am a streamlined machine. I analyze the job, concoct my plan, manage everyone in the chain and then work like a machine until the job is put to bed with its every detail ironed and buffed. In fact, lately I've gotten even better at this kind of thing because I no longer accompany these mad jags with intense tension. Instead, I sail through with calm clarity.
But then there are days like I've had in the last week where very little is happening. Now, there is lots of long-term planning I could do; and there are systems I could be writing up for our ongoing process documents. But it's so damned hard! And I find myself blogging, browsing and generally unable to focus, desperately happy when someone brings me a little scrap of work to bite into.
It's a kind of ADD, I think, that feeds off intensity. I can't even use these days productively to surreptitiously get my own shit done. I just feel the hours waste away and I try to drive off the desperation that feeling brings. Thank gord my boss describes the coming storm of summer work as a Tsunami!
There are certain ways I excel at my job. In a crisis with a huge, mangy project on my desk and a tight deadline, I am a streamlined machine. I analyze the job, concoct my plan, manage everyone in the chain and then work like a machine until the job is put to bed with its every detail ironed and buffed. In fact, lately I've gotten even better at this kind of thing because I no longer accompany these mad jags with intense tension. Instead, I sail through with calm clarity.
But then there are days like I've had in the last week where very little is happening. Now, there is lots of long-term planning I could do; and there are systems I could be writing up for our ongoing process documents. But it's so damned hard! And I find myself blogging, browsing and generally unable to focus, desperately happy when someone brings me a little scrap of work to bite into.
It's a kind of ADD, I think, that feeds off intensity. I can't even use these days productively to surreptitiously get my own shit done. I just feel the hours waste away and I try to drive off the desperation that feeling brings. Thank gord my boss describes the coming storm of summer work as a Tsunami!
