Once More with a Cooler Head

Let me just take a moment to reframe my angst of yesterday a little more quietly:

I am having a hard time knowing how to exist between two contradictory poles. On the one hand, it is apparent that the environmental crisis we are facing is profound and will manifest itself more and more dramatically in our lifetimes. Everything I've read and observed leads to me to think that the crisis might just be acute and I wonder if our civilization can survive the turmoil. I know I am going to start doing my financial planning based on the idea that the economy and the markets will be inherently unstable for the rest of my life.

But besides sharing depressing conversations with a few equally desperate people, I have to live in a world which is either going on "business as usual" or is in fact continuing to marvel at technological progress and get woodies over the brilliance of our culture and its increasingly zingy modes of delivering entertainment.

I see little analysis and much blaming. Looking at systems holisitically seems to be beyond our ability; or more likely, beyond our desires.

Sometimes I don't know how to live between these poles without being torn apart.